Breaking Gens was founded by Apriljoy Brown in 2020 and became public in 2024. Breaking Gens was created with the mission of breaking generational curses while also bringing further generational blessings. We are locked in on returning to nakedness before God as in the garden of Eden by; pleading J.O.Y. (Salvation) and BEing Free (Letting Go) in order to free others. We commit to doing this by living by the fruits essential to a spirit lead by Christ. Finally, we believe that you are worthy because He is worthy, and we plead J.O.Y. for you. (3.2.1)
How we got to Breaking Gens?
I know I’m not the only one that wants to break generational curses. Break free from the past traumas, mindsets, and patterns. There are so many things that we carry in our day-to-day life that aren’t even things that belong to us. They are things that have been handed down from generation to generation, most times, subconsciously and without notice. However, even though they were not noticed being placed into the hands of the younger generation in more ways than one, the impact still takes place in molding these babies into adults holding the same things ready to hand them off to the next just as was done to them.
Realizing this has taken me years but the affects didn’t wait to set in and direct my life. In fact, it’s because of those impacts and direction that lead me to begin to pursue undoing things I didn’t even understand. At a young age, I became very self-aware and often times overly critical of myself. I would analyze and reanalyze myself and those around me. I acknowledged the good things and for a while focused only on them but after seeing those goods overshadowed by the bad it could only be expected that I would begin to naturally focus on the negative things more. From there I had begun to deep dive into all I had observed, experienced, and picked up along the way and coach myself to be the very opposite of those negative things.
Did I conquer everything? Nope
Did it send me into a spiral of negative thinking and expectations? Absolutely
But what it also did, is let me see that although there were negatives that out shadow the goods and positives, there are still goods and positives, and I can make a life with. More goods than the negatives.
This thinking begun my pursuit of happiness. I went up and down, (and sometimes still do) in and out of good moods pursuing a happiness that just refused to stay. From there I realized something was missing and as well as having my first child, I realized the only thing that had kept me going and in pursuit of this happiness was the belief I had in God. So, naturally I begun to get closer to God to ensure my child had the hope in what kept me all my life. Little did I know the more I sought God to make sure my child was covered, the more I felt His covering redefining the younger me that had been trying to remove the identified negatives and bad by pursuing goods I thought would completely erase them.
This took me by surprised and stopped me in my tracks. It actually took my focus from my child and had me remember I didn’t want to hand to my child the very same bads that were handed to me. But now, it wasn’t that simple. I know I didn’t want to hand him anything negative but how was I supposed to not allow it to end up in his hands when my hands were filthy, and his hands reached for me for everything. It had me stumped. Made me stop and reanalyze what I thought was already analyzed. How do I become free if doing the opposite of what had me captive wasn’t freeing me? Happiness just wasn’t working and seeking God was only showing I had other things to work on than the things I was already working on.
I paused in the pursuit of happiness when I was asked the question, “If you break free from something Apriljoy, what are you left with? What are you placing in that now freed area?” I had not one answer to respond with. I wanted to be freed and out of bondage, but I didn’t have any idea where I was headed or how to survive once the chains were gone and the bads really did stop out shadowing the goods.
It’s so easy to want to not experience something that has been troubling or a burden. It’s understandable to not want to suffer or be in bondage anymore but when asked that question I realized that if I actually did become free, then what.? What was life after the bondage? Freedom right. No more bondage. No more pain. No more trouble. That’s the pursuit. That will bring forth the happiness that everyone desires. I went from pursuing happiness to realizing that the whole idea of that pursuit was a scam to begin with. Happiness wasn’t the absence of the bad like I thought. Happiness was circumstantial and temporary. Happiness wasn’t freedom. I realized happiness was what I was already getting but not what I wanted and therefore not satisfying or freeing. What I wanted was the absence of bad completely and well that not realistic in this real world. Bad, storms, negative things will come. I began to understand that the bad things are an experience but the way I perceive, ingest, and accept the bad determines just how much of the good it gets to overshadow.
I had found out that God loved me. I had found out that He died for everything that I ever did wrong. BUT with that still came cloudy days where it rained, and I had no umbrella because I thought freedom was the absence of storms. I had to realize that was going to be for me and the child I tried to serve God for. I couldn’t answer the question for years. “What would I fill the freed areas with once I was free?” In actuality, I don’t even think I slowed down to actually hear the question for years. Life was still lifeing but I was just going non-stop because I was under the impression that I wasn’t “working hard enough” to “show” God that I believed in Him. This was the reason the happiness wasn’t fulfilling or freeing for me. Meanwhile, I was missing the point that He freed me already and this took place way before I made the choice to believe in Him. The only reason I was in bondage. The only reason I had the false understanding of what happiness really resulted from me never understanding J.O.Y... Joy was actually what I had been in pursuit of the whole time and until I learned that I couldn’t actually be freed from anything. Which meant I couldn’t break anything and because of that mindset I couldn’t receive the very blessings I was living in.
My idea of freedom was having no storms while God’s idea was knowing how to withstand them. It’s not too long ago that I began to grasp this revelation. Sometimes I still don’t understand the Sovereignty that lies in it. I can answer the question now. The answer was found in layers. The understanding came in various season.
What I learned is breaking generational curses is not the beginning it is the result of understanding the blessings that have already been brought forth. These blessings are meant to fill us so that the curses have no room to hold place in or lives anymore.
We, Breaking Gens, want to reveal the understanding of the freedom that WE ALL already live in. We want to tell the tales that generations before us lived out but failed to tell. We want to witness the same freeing that we have learn to accept in bits in pieces as we have dived deeper, not into ourselves who were once captive but, into the one who defines what it is to be free!
Join us in this deep dive. Come with us into breakthrough. Live with us in freedom. We can all be free in this world. We can all break generational curses as we bring forth generational blessings. We can all live with J.O.Y.
Remember it is because of Him that you are worthy of all the Lord has for you. And it is because of Him that I plead J.O.Y.
Until next time……
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